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昨晚睡得不是很好，因为我脚上有两个很大的破皮伤口。。 是我前晚不知这么样抓伤的。。 害到我痛了一天一夜。。 走路也痛，睡觉也痛。。

还有昨晚也做了令一个怪梦。。 可能也害到我一直醒来。。 令早起床时特别得不容易。。

好了，这篇文章就写到这吧。。 我其实是在厕所里写的。。 哈哈。。 在做大号没事做吗！ 今天还不错，只用了半小时来写。。 有点成就感。。 所以心情还不错。。

昨天睡了之后作了一个很奇怪又很累的一个长梦.. 我已经忘了是这么样的梦了..就怪怪的.. 好像有很多动作.. 梦醒时觉得好累..

起床后虽然睡得不是很满足,心情还挺好的.. 送了老婆去上班之后我就慢慢的准备我自己上班的事..上了office之后心情就开始变得不那么好了.. 

我的电脑忽然不能和我的手机synchronise.. 我试重新安装activesync 4.5.. 可是电脑还是找不到我的手机.. 没办法了.. 我只好hard-reset我的手机然后从新再把资料输入手机里.. 这样就浪费了我大部分的时间.. 我有好多事还没办的.. 咳.. 别管了.. 快点上网po这个blog先在说.. 哈哈哈..

咳.. 猜猜我用了多少时间写这个短短的post.. 哈哈.. 差不多一个小时吧!! 不止这样我还找到"A Groovy Kind of Love" by Phil Collin 的歌.. 和我的心情一样.. 蓝蓝的.. 

When Im feeling blue, all I have to do
Is take a look at you, then Im not so blue
When youre close to me, I can feel your heart beat
I can hear you breathing near my ear
Wouldnt you agree, baby you and me got a groovy kind of love

Anytime you want to you can turn me onto
Anything you want to, anytime at all
When I kiss your lips, ooh I start to shiver
Cant control the quivering inside
Wouldnt you agree, baby you and me got a groovy kind of love, oh

When Im feeling blue, all I have to do
Is take a look at you, then Im not so blue
When Im in your arms, nothing seems to matter
My whole world could shatter, I dont care
Wouldnt you agree, baby you and me got a groovy kind of love
We got a groovy kind of love
We got a groovy kind of love, oh
We got a groovy kind of love

 

不知道为什么我现在觉得有点blue。。 还以为我已经没事了，因为吃晚餐的时候还跟老婆有说有笑的。。可是要睡的一小时之前，我的心情又开始地露了。。 其实并没有任何的原因，就忽然感觉非常的blue。。 为什么我会这样子呢？ 我也不知道。。 我只知道我很不喜欢这个感觉。。 我现在睡不下就因为那blue的感觉让我很烦恼。。 我想式用中文来写这个blog。。 可能我还会把blue的感觉变小一些。。因为我的华文是超烂的。。 为了写这短短的只行字，我用了一个小时那么久！ 够吓人吧。。 真的还有一点用哟。。 写完了这个文章以后，我有点小小的成就感。。 也有一点开心我能够用中文来完成一个blog entry。。 我也有点累了就因为我用了好多脑力来写的。。 希望明天我不会那么blue了。。

Last weekend I went almost "techless".. I did not watch tv, I did not switch on my PC, I did not play with my phone (much)... I would say the detox worked 50%...

I did gave in to temptations and surf a little on my phone.. I also watched "Day after Tomorrow" last night on Channel 5.

My mind is still quite fixated over some things, but I feel that the obsessions are slowly losing their grip over my life..

Overall, I'm quite happy with this week's mind detox session.. I think I will do it again this coming weekend.

It is very refreshing to let go of technology and just live a simple life, enjoying companionship with the person I love.

 

today I tried to divert all my attention to work but some how I cannot do it. but I guess my mind is quite tired enough just thinking about work. I am going to sleep soon and will be going cold turkey off technology for the weekend. I won't be using my phone or pc or even watch tv.

the only thing I am allowing myself to use tomorrow is the atm, car, and and maybe car radio.

hope I can do it. I need to clear my head.

Last night, I dreamt that I was an accomplice in a bank robbery attempt. I was caught and while in the police station, I wasn't really scared of going to jail or spending years behind bars. What scared me awake was the thought that the criminal record will be a mark in my life forever and I will have difficulty in life later because of the record.

I seemed to have gotten my priority wrong? Or perhaps subconsiously I really wanted a change in my life that I do not mind going to jail to force a drastic change?

Hmm... Dreams are really weird... I think dreams are fantasies that our minds used to resolve a lot of the thoughts that are currently running in the head.

 

i need to flush my mind of useless thoughts. there is so much rubbish thoughts in my head that i cannot concentrate on the important things. i can't sleep too. sux.

maybe if i devote all my energy to work and make myself very tired mentally i might be able to sleep better. i will try that tomorrow.

I don't know what's wrong with me lately. for the past 1 week, I have been feeling very driven to do something. but I have no aim in my life and my mind is so confused about something. I just can't seem to snap myself out of this fixation.

I seem to be spending huge amount of time to do meaningless things. I have been visiting a few websites constantly few times each day, just looking at the mini changes that is updated. I have no idea why I am doing this for? I have no idea what I am trying to achieve except that it is something for me to do.

am I going mad? I need to come out of this state of mind! or I might really go insane!